The Disdained Child
The Child of Jealousy and Hate
By: Julian Javier
Date: May 12, 2011 @ 10:47PM GMT +8
I hate you… I hate them… I hate the world…
Sick and tired…
Empty and dried…
Empty and dried…
A child born of jealousy that became hate…
A bastard that carries a another’s namesake…
One who grew up with everyone’s hate…
The disturbed one hated for his namesake…
The one born of a different mother…
The one born of a different father…
A bastard that carries a another’s namesake…
One who grew up with everyone’s hate…
The disturbed one hated for his namesake…
The one born of a different mother…
The one born of a different father…
The unwanted… The black sheep…
The scape goat.. The misjudged…
The scape goat.. The misjudged…
I am angry…
So called siblings hate me…
So called family doesn’t like me…
So called friends always betray me…
So called lovers derogate me…
So called siblings hate me…
So called family doesn’t like me…
So called friends always betray me…
So called lovers derogate me…
for all i know, they all want me dead…
for all i know, they all want a platter set with my head…
for all i know, they want to spread my ground guts on a bread…
feed it to dogs which are stray bred…
and wash their hands with my blood that’s crimson red…
for all i know, they all want a platter set with my head…
for all i know, they want to spread my ground guts on a bread…
feed it to dogs which are stray bred…
and wash their hands with my blood that’s crimson red…
fuck it! i don’t care and I won’t argue…
I won’t argue though I immensely hate them too…
I want to strangle them all too till they turn blue…
and massacre them all intently and violently like a rampaging grue…
I won’t argue though I immensely hate them too…
I want to strangle them all too till they turn blue…
and massacre them all intently and violently like a rampaging grue…
But i won’t do that…
I can’t do that…
How could i possibly do that…
Their my loved ones, it’s a fact, and i hate that…
I can’t do that…
How could i possibly do that…
Their my loved ones, it’s a fact, and i hate that…
Though I hated…
Before i hated…
I tried to love…
Even if I hated…
I still loved…
Though i hated…
I just need to be loved…
Though i hated…
I am just looking for your love…
I tried to love…
Even if I hated…
I still loved…
Though i hated…
I just need to be loved…
Though i hated…
I am just looking for your love…
Why can’t they give me something so simple?
To give love to a brother and family member of their own flesh and blood…
Why can’t they give me something so trivial?
To give love to this friend and lover called me…
To give love to a brother and family member of their own flesh and blood…
Why can’t they give me something so trivial?
To give love to this friend and lover called me…
Just accept me for who i am that’s all i have asked…
For in your hate all my life i had basked…
For all this time i have seen through you who is masked…
Be with me and accept me, is that too much ask?
For in your hate all my life i had basked…
For all this time i have seen through you who is masked…
Be with me and accept me, is that too much ask?
Now my mind is split in two…
One says to keep on hating you…
One says to keep on loving you…
My mind is in chaos because of what you showed me and do…
One says to keep on hating you…
One says to keep on loving you…
My mind is in chaos because of what you showed me and do…
You don’t understand me…
You try to control me…
You stab me behind my back and disdain me…
You can’t even simply respect me being me…
You try to control me…
You stab me behind my back and disdain me…
You can’t even simply respect me being me…
I hate you… i hate them…
i hate myself too… i hate the the world and what you all do…
i hate myself too… i hate the the world and what you all do…
I am the unaccepted, the unwanted
I am the hate child…
I am the hate child…
Why? I know.
Because you think our mother loved me more than she did you.
Because you think my father fathered me better than your father who fathered you.
Because you think our father loved me more than he did you.
Because you think my mother mothered me better than your mother who mothered you.
Because you think I’m better than you and you can’t accept it.
Because you can’t stand that I have become a man.
Or maybe because you are just that childish.
Because you think our mother loved me more than she did you.
Because you think my father fathered me better than your father who fathered you.
Because you think our father loved me more than he did you.
Because you think my mother mothered me better than your mother who mothered you.
Because you think I’m better than you and you can’t accept it.
Because you can’t stand that I have become a man.
Or maybe because you are just that childish.
You’re wrong from what I see.
You’re spiteful mind is clouded with envy.
They all loved us equally.
You just refused to see.
No one is better than others.
That’s how they see us, our mothers and our fathers.
You’re spiteful mind is clouded with envy.
They all loved us equally.
You just refused to see.
No one is better than others.
That’s how they see us, our mothers and our fathers.
Though I do some things better than you…
It doesn’t mean that I am better than you…
I have my specialties and you have yours too…
It doesn’t mean that I am better than you…
I have my specialties and you have yours too…
I loved you though you hated me.
I respected you though you always have belittled me.
I respected you though you always have belittled me.
Don’t worry I don’t hate you completely for what you did to me.
I just hate you that much, so don’t misunderstand me.
Don’t worry I understand you completely.
This hate I feel for thee is nothing compared to the love and respect that I show thee.
It’s not a ruse you see.
Though I hate thee I still love thee.
I just hate you that much, so don’t misunderstand me.
Don’t worry I understand you completely.
This hate I feel for thee is nothing compared to the love and respect that I show thee.
It’s not a ruse you see.
Though I hate thee I still love thee.
It’s hard to understand i know.
Let’s reconcile when we meet in hell down below.
Let’s reconcile when we meet in hell down below.
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sharp, powerful imagery, well done.
Very nice write
nice tale 🙂
happy goosebery day!
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mmmm… such deep words… I feel many of the same words you have so creatively placed together…. this was a very powerful poem!!!
very sharp and powerful piece.
well done.
Wow… incredible write…
This leaves me speechless…
ayos!