Pestilence and Plague

Pestilence and Plague
A narrative about a tumultuous death in Pestilence and Plague
By: Julian Javier
Date Created: May 10, 2011 @ 7:12AM GMT +8
Date Revised: December 29, 2011 @ 10:51AM GMT +8
 

To whom the bell tolls,


 

Stricken by a curse, the land was plagued…
With the misery it brought, no one can be saved…
Death was the deliverance the pestilence hastily paved…

 

In this account, feel the agony it gave…
See what horror these eyes saw in the turmoil it made…
May this deliver the agony it gave before the will to live caved…

 

From the inside, the body burning violently…
The mind and body in intense pain and pure agony…

 

Feeling pain to which no one can endure…
Both physical and mental torture…

 

A nightmare while wide awake and sane…
Understanding the difference between relief and pain…

 

Comfort is what medicine fails to give…
Wishing to die yet still desiring to live…

 

Having no appetite yet starving and famished…
Enduring the final moments of pain and anguish…

 

By the Pestilence, virulently afflicted…
Viability coercively subjugated…
Savagely obliterated…

 

By the Plague, miserably tormented…
Vitality ruthlessly being desecrated…
Climatically devastated…

 

Finally the hour of death…
Struggling to fight for each and every last breath…
Coughing out a horrid substance like of crud…
Through open wounds, leaking drops of crimson blood…

 

Under the sun amidst it’s scorched earth collapsing…
Sprawled on the dirt gasping for air strenuously ailing…
Finally, the moment that has long been found wanting…
Cherishing past memories to the long awaited ending…

 

“Farewell…”

 

All that was left was a foul and lifeless flesh to be undone…
To decompose and decay under the blazing hot mid-day sun…
A vile sight with a putrid stench that is dreadfully disgusting…
Utterly defiled and detestably nauseating…

 

Virally Your's,
The Pestilent One


 

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A Sudden Rush

A Sudden Rush
An Unorthodox Choka Poem of a Euphoric Torment…
A Story of a Soul who found an Interim Happiness, Slowly Fading Away…
By: Julian Corvinus Javier
Date: October 1, 2011 @ 8:16PM GMT +8
 

Rushing through my veins…
A torrent of vehemence…

 

My pain dissipates…
A renewed vigour once more…

 

Keeping me alive…
In the moment of pure bliss…

 

And within myself…
Fusing with my ebb and flow…
Swarming my senses…
A deluge of ideas…
A frenzied influx of thoughts…

 

My spirit reveals…
What I can’t see through the haze…
Clear moments, so ecstatic…
My soul slowly oozing out…
Every drop of life within…

 

Through all provisions…
Moments of infinity…
All vain facades..
And interim nirvana…
I’m flourishing through torment…

 

Calmly I’m fading…
Converging with euphoria…
Through life’s destined end…

 


 

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A Broken Soul

A Broken Soul
Random Scribblings of a Broken Soul
By: Julian Javier
Date: May 18, 2011 10:18AM @GMT +8
 

A soul brutally torn…
A life suddenly subject to scorn…

 

Thought to forever be forlorn…
And never again be reborn…

 

Set to forever mourn…
Unable to fulfil what was sworn…

 

Cast aside and rend asunder…
Downed by one blunder…

 

Desiring to bury the past to down under…
Sanity and insanity falters…

 

A swig of vodka…
A hit of smoke…
Loneliness and hopelessness…
Eating out the heart and bringing utter darkness…

 

Fear feeding the hate inside that is brooding…
Hate churning the anger from within…
Anger fuelling the flames of suffering…
Suffering tormenting the soul from within…

 

Left alone and forsaken…
The broken one exiled to utter ruin…

 

A Soul Sundered


 

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Perfect For You

Perfect for you…
Will you let me try to be the man perfect for you?
By: Julian Javier
Date: May 18, 2011 @ 2:01AM GMT +8
 

Bread will not fill me…
Water will not quench me…
Even my cigarettes will not understand me…
For only you can complete me…

 

From the moment your eyes met mine…
I said to myself “Oh God, I wish you’re mine”…
Even in the darkness you shine…
Bringing colors to this black and white heart of mine…

 

I long for that alluring glimmer…
found only from your beautiful eyes…
I long for your lovely smile…
that is as gorgeous as the sunrise…

 

I long for the gentleness and softness…
found only from your luscious lips…
I long for the warm breathing sensation…
found only from your nostrils..

 

I want to feel your smoothness…
from your hands of divine beauty…
I want to feel your frailty…
and the warmth from your body…

 

Every day I think of you…
Every night I dream of you…
Every time I close my eyes I see you…
Like your smile has been etched on my mind like a tattoo…

 

I’ll never stop thinking…
I’ll never stop longing…
I’ll never stop dreaming…
Of you, only for you…

 

To me you are perfect and my heart knows it’s true…
I want to show you love that is true…
Not in vain nor for granted… unlike what others had done to you…
Will you let me try to be the perfect man for you?

 

Here I am writing my heart out with all my passion…
With prayers that my ink will someday catch your attention…
Maybe someday in your mind my name will be a mention…
Feel my heart in my words written with a loving fashion…

 

To me you are perfect and I knows it’s true…
I want to try and be the perfect man for you…

 

Perfect... Just like the Cherry Blossom...


 

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The Disdained Child

The Disdained Child
The Child of Jealousy and Hate
By: Julian Javier
Date: May 12, 2011 @ 10:47PM GMT +8
 

I hate you… I hate them… I hate the world…

 

Sick and tired…
Empty and dried…

 

A child born of jealousy that became hate…
A bastard that carries a another’s namesake…
One who grew up with everyone’s hate…
The disturbed one hated for his namesake…
The one born of a different mother…
The one born of a different father…

 

The unwanted… The black sheep…
The scape goat.. The misjudged…

 

I am angry…
So called siblings hate me…
So called family doesn’t like me…
So called friends always betray me…
So called lovers derogate me…

 

for all i know, they all want me dead…
for all i know, they all want a platter set with my head…
for all i know, they want to spread my ground guts on a bread…
feed it to dogs which are stray bred…
and wash their hands with my blood that’s crimson red…

 

fuck it! i don’t care and I won’t argue…
I won’t argue though I immensely hate them too…
I want to strangle them all too till they turn blue…
and massacre them all intently and violently like a rampaging grue…

 

But i won’t do that…
I can’t do that…
How could i possibly do that…
Their my loved ones, it’s a fact, and i hate that…

 

Though I hated…

 

Before i hated…
I tried to love…
Even if I hated…
I still loved…
Though i hated…
I just need to be loved…
Though i hated…
I am just looking for your love…

 

Why can’t they give me something so simple?
To give love to a brother and family member of their own flesh and blood…
Why can’t they give me something so trivial?
To give love to this friend and lover called me…

 

Just accept me for who i am that’s all i have asked…
For in your hate all my life i had basked…
For all this time i have seen through you who is masked…
Be with me and accept me, is that too much ask?

 

Now my mind is split in two…
One says to keep on hating you…
One says to keep on loving you…
My mind is in chaos because of what you showed me and do…

 

You don’t understand me…
You try to control me…
You stab me behind my back and disdain me…
You can’t even simply respect me being me…

 

I hate you… i hate them…
i hate myself too… i hate the the world and what you all do…

 

I am the unaccepted, the unwanted
I am the hate child…

 

Why? I know.
Because you think our mother loved me more than she did you.
Because you think my father fathered me better than your father who fathered you.
Because you think our father loved me more than he did you.
Because you think my mother mothered me better than your mother who mothered you.
Because you think I’m better than you and you can’t accept it.
Because you can’t stand that I have become a man.
Or maybe because you are just that childish.

 

You’re wrong from what I see.
You’re spiteful mind is clouded with envy.
They all loved us equally.
You just refused to see.
No one is better than others.
That’s how they see us, our mothers and our fathers.

 

Though I do some things better than you…
It doesn’t mean that I am better than you…
I have my specialties and you have yours too…

 

I loved you though you hated me.
I respected you though you always have belittled me.

 

Don’t worry I don’t hate you completely for what you did to me.
I just hate you that much, so don’t misunderstand me.
Don’t worry I understand you completely.
This hate I feel for thee is nothing compared to the love and respect that I show thee.
It’s not a ruse you see.
Though I hate thee I still love thee.

 

It’s hard to understand i know.
Let’s reconcile when we meet in hell down below.

 

Losing Grip

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The Streets of Pain

Streets of Pain
A Dream of an Afternoon Walk in the Land of Torment and Turmoil
A Chōka Poem about the Land of Torment and Turmoil
By: Julian Javier
Date: May 12, 2011 @ 3:41PM GMT +8
 

Dessicated earth
Burning my feet as I pace

 

Winds that burn my skin
My sight blurred by a mirage

 

The scent of decay
I’m breathing difficultly

 

Eyes of the unseen
Watching, waiting for the kill

 

As if I am stalked
Like prey to a predator

 

Sorrow and torment
Screams of terror and anguish

 

From the horizon
A sea of red-hot liquid

 

What sea winds carries
Wails from the souls of the damned
Pain, gnashing of teeth

 

Suffering, Fire, and Turmoil
Will this be my future too?

 

It's fun here! Just like disneyland!

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Chronicle of a Suicide

Chronicle of a Suicide
A fool’s suicide chronicle…
By: Julian Javier
Date: May 11, 2011 @ 8:52PM GMT +8
 

[The Fool]
Deprive me of light and of hope.
Now, come and give me a nice rope.
knot it into a noose.
make sure it’s not lose.
take a pick.
get a brick.
tie it on the other end.
say my last words before my life will end.
now get the brick and throw.
to the river located down below.

 

***woosh!***

 

[The Fool]
whoa!

 

[The Clock]
…1,2,3…

 

***SPLASH!***

 

[The Fool]
Wow, I’m sinking so fast and i’m choking.
My neck giving my lungs difficulty in breathing.
Finally, I’m dying.
It’s the end of my life’s long suffering.
I had a tough life never had a chance to be great.
I broke my parents’ hearts.
I lost half the part of my heart.
It’s all my fault anyway, so fuck it.
I wish I had a chance to change things but had no luck at it.

 

[The Invisible Guardian]
YOU HAVE A CHANCE BUT YOU THREW IT AWAY JUST NOW!

 

[The Fool]
what? huh? who was that voice?
Oh no, did i make a mistake???


wait! I’m dying!
NO! wait, somebody help me!
NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

 

***everything went black***

 

[The Warden]
Ah! Fresh Meat!
*laughs sinisterly*

 

*the fool awakes*

 

[The Fool]
where am I? it’s so hot in here that i’m burning!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!

 

[The Warden]
You’re in the plains of hell. in front of you are its gates.

 

[The Fool]
What the? hell?

 

[The Warden]
come with me!
*laughs sinisterly*
*drags the fool by the neck*

 

[The Fool]
NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! LET ME GO!!! I DON’T WANT THIS!

 

[The Warden]
BUT YOU’RE ALREADY IN IT!!!
*throws the Fool into the river of the dead*
DIE you foolish man! oh, wait… i forgot, you cannot die here!
*laughs sinisterly*

 

[The Narrator]
And so The Fool deceived by his own ignorance suffered eternally…
He thought he could escape with death from reality…
Forever he burned wishing to die intently…
But sadly, he doesn’t… for his suffering is eternal and unending…
He exchanged his life that he thought was suffering for even more suffering…
Beyond redemption… Beyond Healing…
The man suffered amidst the land of tormenting…

 

Ending Haiku recited as the scene ends:

 

“The river carries…
Wails from the souls of the damned…
Eternal torment…”

 

Let's learn how to knot a noose! =)

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