Conquest

Conquest
A Tanka Poem about Conquest
By: Julian Javier
Date: May 16, 2011 @ 3:44PM GMT +8
 

Marching to conquer…
Sounds of weapons of warfare…
Deafening my ears…
Putrid stench of rotting flesh…
And wails in pandemonium…

 

In Flames they Burn


 

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The Disdained Child

The Disdained Child
The Child of Jealousy and Hate
By: Julian Javier
Date: May 12, 2011 @ 10:47PM GMT +8
 

I hate you… I hate them… I hate the world…

 

Sick and tired…
Empty and dried…

 

A child born of jealousy that became hate…
A bastard that carries a another’s namesake…
One who grew up with everyone’s hate…
The disturbed one hated for his namesake…
The one born of a different mother…
The one born of a different father…

 

The unwanted… The black sheep…
The scape goat.. The misjudged…

 

I am angry…
So called siblings hate me…
So called family doesn’t like me…
So called friends always betray me…
So called lovers derogate me…

 

for all i know, they all want me dead…
for all i know, they all want a platter set with my head…
for all i know, they want to spread my ground guts on a bread…
feed it to dogs which are stray bred…
and wash their hands with my blood that’s crimson red…

 

fuck it! i don’t care and I won’t argue…
I won’t argue though I immensely hate them too…
I want to strangle them all too till they turn blue…
and massacre them all intently and violently like a rampaging grue…

 

But i won’t do that…
I can’t do that…
How could i possibly do that…
Their my loved ones, it’s a fact, and i hate that…

 

Though I hated…

 

Before i hated…
I tried to love…
Even if I hated…
I still loved…
Though i hated…
I just need to be loved…
Though i hated…
I am just looking for your love…

 

Why can’t they give me something so simple?
To give love to a brother and family member of their own flesh and blood…
Why can’t they give me something so trivial?
To give love to this friend and lover called me…

 

Just accept me for who i am that’s all i have asked…
For in your hate all my life i had basked…
For all this time i have seen through you who is masked…
Be with me and accept me, is that too much ask?

 

Now my mind is split in two…
One says to keep on hating you…
One says to keep on loving you…
My mind is in chaos because of what you showed me and do…

 

You don’t understand me…
You try to control me…
You stab me behind my back and disdain me…
You can’t even simply respect me being me…

 

I hate you… i hate them…
i hate myself too… i hate the the world and what you all do…

 

I am the unaccepted, the unwanted
I am the hate child…

 

Why? I know.
Because you think our mother loved me more than she did you.
Because you think my father fathered me better than your father who fathered you.
Because you think our father loved me more than he did you.
Because you think my mother mothered me better than your mother who mothered you.
Because you think I’m better than you and you can’t accept it.
Because you can’t stand that I have become a man.
Or maybe because you are just that childish.

 

You’re wrong from what I see.
You’re spiteful mind is clouded with envy.
They all loved us equally.
You just refused to see.
No one is better than others.
That’s how they see us, our mothers and our fathers.

 

Though I do some things better than you…
It doesn’t mean that I am better than you…
I have my specialties and you have yours too…

 

I loved you though you hated me.
I respected you though you always have belittled me.

 

Don’t worry I don’t hate you completely for what you did to me.
I just hate you that much, so don’t misunderstand me.
Don’t worry I understand you completely.
This hate I feel for thee is nothing compared to the love and respect that I show thee.
It’s not a ruse you see.
Though I hate thee I still love thee.

 

It’s hard to understand i know.
Let’s reconcile when we meet in hell down below.

 

Losing Grip

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Armageddonism

Armageddonism
Ideology of Chaos, Discord, and Malice; A Path to Self-Destruction
By: Julian Javier
Date: April 21, 2011 @ 4:35AM GMT +8
 

Graft and corruption…
Money for wars instead of children’s education…
The weak and the poor always subject to oppression…
A message brought by the emissaries of destruction disguised to cause dissension…

 

Democracy and justice cast into oblivion…
Bloodshed due to indifference, false belief, and religion…
The unjust conducting the symphony of destruction…
Omnicide using weapons of mass destruction…

 

Chaos, anarchy, and democide…
Love and understanding cast aside…
Worldwide turmoil, panic, and depression side by side…
Fear, hate, anger, the desire to kill, and suffering all inside!

 

Innate human greed and blood lust…
Gossip, betrayal, and mistrust…
A sea of blood creeping on the surface of earth’s crust…
To kill a brother is a must!

 

A desire to destroy and rebuild burns…
Moral lessons in each of the events that no one learns…
A never ending cycle of war and peace taking turns…
Armageddon as the prophets have discerned…

 

A world covered in blood, flames, and darkness…
Where everyone is consumed by power and madness…
Where the just are depressed with grief and sadness…
A wonderful world of Chaos, Discord, and Malice…

 

Satan is sitting pretty in his throne and he’s smiling…
Thinking…

 

All ye have been blindly faithful and loyal to me.
So, I shall reward all of thee!
Never ending pain and suffering that you wish awaits thee!
Bwahahahahahahaha!!! (Sinister Evil Laugh)

 

"We are so excite of Armageddon! We love to see destruction! hahaha"

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To the Slanderer!

A Message to that Puny Little Slanderer
By: Julian Javier
Date: March 8, 2011 @ 2:15PM GMT +8

I thought what I'd do was, I'd pretend I was one of those deaf-mutes

I thought what I'd do was, I'd pretend I was one of those deaf-mutes

This one is dedicated to the slanderous commenter yesterday with the email address of maverick.patsi@yahoo.com and the IPs of 120.28.64.75 and 120.28.64.76 you know who you are.
I marked your slanderous words as spam sucker!
By the way thank you for making me notice that comments here in my blog are automatically approved. haha t(^_^t) now i will never again be victimized by likes of you!
You don’t have any idea what happened so shut the fuck up and bug off and read this so you can be educated you stupid idiot monkey!

To the filthy puny little slanderer:

Sure! Sure!
Blame it all on me!
Disgust me and Hate me!
Spread more bad gossip about me!
Use your filthy bickering tongue and spit on me!

You think you are wise.
Go and spread your filthy lies!
Patch up the truth and take sides!
People who love me will know where the truth resides!

You say the truths I always deny…
Ask anyone I know here and see if there is truth in your shameful lie!

I know I still have my son whom I so still dearly love!
I know I once had a wife whom I once loved!

She disrespected me for a lot of times…
She even disrespected my one and only mother in my lifetime!

My mother who is 65 years old who only showed compassion and concern…
A mother who tried to teach us the ways of a partnership but she refused to learn…

I even came to a decision to leave my mother living on a separate house all alone…
Only to suffice my once wife’s desire to stand-alone!
I disregarded thinking how old my mom was for this wife’s desire to have a home…
with only the three of us me, her, and my son alone!

At first I was happy that we came to a compromise…
I thought the decision I made was truly wise…

but then her and mom met again on the road’s steps…
and in front of me she lacked to show the appropriate respect!

She did not talk until my mom called her thrice…
She did not even look my mom in the eyes!
In my mind at least show my mom respect and be polite…
at least give her back the smile she gave you under the bright sunny light!

Even after that lack of respect…
I was still willing to forgive her in retrospect…

But then what got me was she was trying to avoid our son…
trying to avoid our son from his loving grandmom!

Is it right to say to your husband’s loving mother not to come to her grandson’s birthday?
Is it right to say to your husband’s loving mother to bug off and stay away?
You think the news never came to me?
You think my mom reported that to me?
I ain’t deaf, neither blind, and definitely not a mute
It was a friend who shared that text message that showed me the truth.
Is that right in any way?
Fuck you! That definitely ain’t right in any way!

You can’t blame me for I did not lack in forgiveness
I forgave but she still was so relentless

I forgave a hundred times
until my mercy was put to the edge of the line.

I know i made mistakes in the past
I ain’t perfect but surely I am not the same as the person whom you possibly knew in the past.

I tremble with indignation at every injustice
I do not fear your words of hate and malice

You are a filthy little rat!
You smell like shit stuck on a dead man’s gut!
To me you are a small stinky little snot!

I am angry at her and to all of you who spread slanderous gossips against me!
But still I shall forgive you and forget all this if you only say sorry.
Fuck you and burn in your “Hell” that you always preach in your church if you don’t want to!
I ain’t forcing you!
Unlike in your religion who force people to believe in all of you!
force belief that can’t even be seen in the likes of you!
I can never be compared to your filthy clan and specially you!

SLANDERER! FILTHY DISGUSTING SLANDERER!

I’ll burn you tied up inside your house when I meet you!
hahaha!

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I Don’t Wanna Change the World
By: Ozzy Osbourne

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